Dear Baby,
We’re one month closer to hearing your heartbeat, seeing an ultrasound picture of you, and then finally, holding you. We celebrated Christmas over this past month and you actually already are getting presents designated to you- you got some new clothes, a nice warm blanket, and -my favorite- a rocking chair. Right now your stuffed bunny sits on the rocking chair but I can’t wait until it’s me sitting on that chair rocking you to sleep.
We haven’t forgotten about you, don’t ever worry about that. You and your birth momma are still very much in our thoughts and prayers. Though I have to say, I knew the adoption was going to be a long process but I guess I thought each day I’d feel like we were moving closer to you. And though in reality we are getting closer to you, it doesn’t really feel like that right now. The thought of you is like an amazing, far away dream. I’m ready for us to take the next step- gosh, I’ve been ready for months for us to take the next step but our agency isn’t ready yet. I’m ready for the exciting parts of this adoption journey, the parts that take my breath away, the parts that make me smile so big my cheeks hurt.
We haven’t done anything for the adoption this month because, well, we really can’t do anything until the agency tells us we can move forward. So we’re just living life like this may be our last time to do “childless couple” things- like going to a midnight premiere of a movie…and then fall asleep while watching it, plan a babymoon (eeekkk, only 4 days left!!), stay up late just because we can, go on plenty of dates, play with Lana a little bit extra, spending money on ourselves instead of you, and taking naps (hah!). I’m enjoying telling people that we have a baby on the way and then have them look towards my stomach with a bit of confusion and then have to explain everything. 🙂
Can’t wait to meet you, little baby!
Love,
Your Momma
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